In an instant he forgets that he should be afraid of the Sun, that the bomb might not work, and that he's about to die... he just basks in direct communion with the universe that no amount of scientific observation could have described. There is no death, only the reality of oneness with all things. The return to stardust. It's the Sun's way - or the universe's way - of saying that no matter what happens, everything is always okay. Even as you watch the movie, you can feel his overwhelming sense of release from the nightmare he's just experienced. All the other crew members died honorably, but only Capa glimpses this pure level of enlightenment before death - and all in one billionth of a second.

Of course, I know I'm projecting my own feelings onto Capa... but that's why the movie is so useful to me. I identify with Capa, and experience the scene through him. Almost like a guided meditation. The whole movie is the journey of human consciousness towards melding with the mind of the cosmos. It's such an incredibly profound summation of my spirituality and my view of nature. This is who I want to be. This is how I want to die.
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