In an instant he forgets
that he should be afraid of the Sun, that the bomb might not
work, and that he's about to die... he just basks in direct
communion with the universe that no amount of scientific
observation could have described. There is no death, only the
reality of oneness with all things. The return to stardust. It's
the Sun's way - or the universe's way - of saying that no matter
what happens, everything is always okay. Even as you watch the
movie, you can feel his overwhelming sense of release from the
nightmare he's just experienced. All the other crew members died
honorably, but only Capa glimpses this pure level of
enlightenment before death - and all in one billionth of a
second.
Of course, I know I'm projecting my own feelings onto Capa...
but that's why the movie is so useful to me. I identify with
Capa, and experience the scene through him. Almost like a guided
meditation.
The whole movie is the journey of human
consciousness towards melding with the mind of the cosmos. It's
such an incredibly profound summation of my spirituality and my
view of nature. This is who I want to be. This is how I want to
die.
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