Point of No Return

“Stay away... Stay away!!!” Griffith, Vol. 12 Ch. 4

And there he was, the reason for this whole mess as far as Griffith was concerned. The one who with a single gesture could melt his heart or drive him mad. The one who abandoned him and left him to rot in prison for year, and now came back to do it all over again. The one person he could not let himself be near, and the one person who, despite all this, he could not let go. To make matters worse, Guts had all the Hawks on his tail. Griffith couldn't bear to face them right now, he just couldn't!

“If you touch me now... If you put your arm on my shoulder now... I'll never... I'll never!!...” Griffith, Vol. 12 Ch. 4

He knew he was highly unstable, that the slightest touch could send him over the edge, but Guts was stubborn, and the fact that Griffith couldn’t speak didn’t help. And then, that final warning before everything went to Hell:

“I’ll never be able to forgive you again.” Griffith, Vol. 12 Ch. 4*

Forgive what? Forgive Guts for leaving? “Again”?? Would that mean that the first time Griffith forgave Guts was during the reunion in the dungeon? But I guess Griffith had his limits. He would not tolerate his heart being broken twice. The Behelit wept tears of blood and uttered an unearthly scream that plunged everyone in the immediate vicinity into another plane of existence. The ground became a sea of twisted faces, and the four members of the God Hand made their appearance.

* This is what Griffith originally said when the chapter was released in Young Animal. When volume 12 was complied, the phrase was edited to be more vague, and now appears in the Dark Horse translation as "I'll never again with you..."

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